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As
long as I can remember I wanted to be feminine. Don’t misunderstand me
I was very happy being a boy and later a man but always felt jealous,
of women for being feminine. I was attracted to every thing about them
and wanted to touch and feel them. Fortunately I had many girl friends
but it always seemed that I was the giver and longed to be the
receiver of the affection. It seemed quite natural that this jealousy
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When
I was a child we lived in a large house with a maid, cook, and housekeeper. The
maid lived in and at the age of fourteen I had the urge to creep into her room
when she was out in the evening with her sister and try on their clothes. They
fitted me well and wearing the soft frilly materials gave me a strange thrill.
At that age I looked very convincing. Imagine yourself meeting me then!
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Later
I went to university and then started work. I met a girl and fell in
love but unfortunately the relationship did not work, the girl I had
chosen did not enjoy being caressed and found it difficult to respond
to me and eventually the physical attraction died. |
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Feeling
starved of affection I sublimated my feeling by becoming my own
‘girl’. For a time I furtively kept some clothes in a suitcase and
dressed for a few hours at a time however later on I became bolder
becoming a ‘girl’ for a few days at a time. Over this period I made
many friends of both sexes in my new identity. On some occasions when
I was dressed, I found that men appeared to be attracted to me
physically. This was a strange experience for me. I had previously
been propositioned by men when I was young but had always found this
distasteful. However when I was dressed as a girl, I found that it was
rather exciting to be the object of someone’s physical desire. They
wanted to touch and feel me, just as I had wanted when I was younger
and for the first time I was able to identify with the women that I
had previously been jealous of. To my surprise I became stimulated
myself and wanted to respond to this desire. |
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This
experience
persuaded me to change from being a transvestite (a man dressed as a
girl) to a transsexual (a man living as a girl). So I changed
identities and took a flat in St Leonards-on-Sea, near
Hastings UK. I then set about the complete transformation. After some
reading I decided not to have the full operation as the removal of the
testicles also removes much of the physical desire and pleasure that I
enjoy. So I had an artificial vagina fitted, together with some breast
enhancement. I already had quite a nice figure 38” bust, 27” waist and
40” hips, although I am rather tall, 5ft 9” without heels. I wear a
corset to enhance my figure and smart clothes for my work (I am a
doctor) but like many girls I enjoy dressing up to go out although I
rarely go over the top. At weekends I am comfy in casuals although I
usually wear a skirt, as I am proud of my rather shapely legs. |
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As
with many in my profession, I am a giving person who gets comfort from
giving pleasure to others. I have had two close relationships with
heterosexual men who I relate to better than gays but my best
relationships have been with lesbians, as in some way they see my
undemanding nature as non-threatening and I can provide the love and
affection that we both need. I think my medical experience helps here
as I am able to climax them in a way they say they have never felt
before. I am very happy to correspond, give advice and even meet those
who would like to make contact. Like everyone I am looking for my
ideal match and am now wise enough to know that first appearances are
not the best guide. Fortunately I am well enough off to afford
luxuries such as meals out and holidays abroad. My address is
info@sallyhastings.co.uk. |
